I don’t know how others feel but I am struggling to comprehend that 2021 ended and we have celebrated a new year and now here we are in 2022. What? I am just not keeping up!

Every morning over the holidays I had to check the phone to see what day it was, not for fear of missing the latest action on social media, but worried I would forget to get up for work….but the worrying thing is, that hasn’t really changed!

We celebrated NYE at home, in fancy pants clothes, espresso martinis (the main reason I NEED a coffee machine) and the lazy chef of the house (me) opted for M and S canapes so nibbled on those whilst listening to Jools Holland and random Apple playlists. How rock and roll hey?

We had our best and hardest year in 2021, just after we had a weekend away celebrating my 40th our little girl was born 3 months premature, and she died just two week later. The best two weeks of our lives, ended abruptly on the absolute worst day of our lives. This had a huge impact on our, and our families lives. I wouldn’t wish it on anybody, there are no words to describe the pain and sadness we have felt and still feel; I am very proud of us all for where we have managed to get to now and very grateful for the support that is keeping us there at the moment.

Getting back on topic, we are in the New Year now, but with Welsh Covid rules and the fear they create, it has actually felt a lot like lock down on repeat….really starting to understand groundhog day. We really want to go out for a few drinks with friends, meet up as we used to (in the olden days) and I suppose feel free again.

I used to make resolutions, then I changed from making myself stop doing things to setting myself something new to try or learn. Now I have decided to celebrate the New Year on 1st Feb in the hope restrictions are lifted a little and perhaps we have a bit of routine in out lives again.

Routine can trigger feelings of monotony and boredom for me, however that was before Covid, now I welcome routine , so then there is a pattern to break….wow, what has become of us.

Our lockdown was, in retrospect, typical. We started by one of us have to shut our shop and business, and me working from home. Now I still love working from home but I really miss farmers. Farmers are brilliant people and that is why I love my job, they are great people,characters and they inspire me. The difficulty with farmers is that they are spread all over the country, so I had to stop visiting them.

I was then furloughed for three weeks. I am incredibly grateful for the furlough scheme, but please don’t think it was a lovely holiday, it properly messes with your head, makes you think your company doesn’t need you, and that is not a nice feeling. The feeling of relief I felt when they wanted me back is not to be underestimated!

We of course joined many others and went on the furlough diet of home baked cakes, special coffees, cocktails, home deliveries of lobster and wine, and had a great time.

Next stage was less fun, it consisted bathroom scales and the shock of that prompting signing up to online HIIT fitness classes to shed the pounds we had piled on without realising.

There is a big gap on anything to write now, we have managed a couple of nights away together which has been fantastic, but not alot to report.

Now then, Despite my negative tone, we are moving forwards. It is the end of January, we don’t do dry January (why is that a thing?!) but we have got back on the scales, and started calorie counting. This is with the aim of reducing calories and therefore being fit for the summer season 😂 and hopefully some foreign sunshine. I am back in work full time, I signed up to an 8 week transformational training programme, and cancelled said programme membership 🙈, and I am considering some coaching/mentoring to regain some focus and get back on track….whatever that may be.

Onwards and upwards we go friends 💪

Now the 1st Feb is upon us, let’s get the year, and the party started and see how it rolls out. I wish you a very Happy New Year, however you choose to do yours!

Take care and thank you for reading x